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Black Heart, Frozen WoundTonight was the night, that I left my past.
I was sitting in my room all alone, drawing a new piece that I plan to make the most perfect in my eye. Which then again, would never be achieved because I accept true perfection can never be reached on Earth. My phone buzzes, lighting up with a contact I thought I erased. It was her, my vice and emotional drug. The Darkness of my heart latched on to her, it begged me to look at the text I received. I invariably open it, reading...and nearly vomiting.
The text simply said this..."I am going to have sex with my new boyfriend, have a good day.". .. To think I cared deeply for her... That one text caused my heart to sink deep within me, causing my chest to ache. The pain, it hurt more than anything in the world. I felt the tears try to escape, I tried to help them out but instead failed. They escaped back, away from the emotional release I needed at that time.
I felt an emotional icing of my heart, a part of it healing. The pain...wont stop. I h
Black Heart, My MultipleMy day
Filled with depressive suicidal thoughts
Far from the Light close to the Dark
Where I have always been
I met a multiple at school
She was like me, without multiples
We became friends
I also made friends with her multiples
Supposed followers of the Dark
Supposed followers of the Light
They were amazingly different
The friendships I made with each
Each as in all thirty-some
I fell in love
I fell deeply in love for the host
A shattered being she was
Sexual in every aspect
Motherly in every aspect
Friendly to the weak
I protected her blindly like a fool
Picking her up
Dusting her off
Kissing her wounds
Loving her back to health
But...what did it bring?
It brought deep emotional scars
Every masochistic act
Every sadistic act
Every ounce of forgiveness
Every bit of trust
Every bit of intimate interaction
All it did was damage me...
She broke a promise to me...
Shattering my heart...
I now struggle with the Darkness
An overwhelming hatred
Black Heart, SacrificedAll I did was love her, treat her like she was the most important thing to me. Sacrificed my heart many times for her, and sacrificed great opportunities. But over and over again, she lied and lied and lied. Me being the kind forgiving fool forgave this evil-sweet goth girl. She cracked my armor, bringing me down to her level. Her level of anger and self hatred. She was more than a fool, she was a simple mindless brat. Given everything and everything taken away. She refused to keep what was pure about her, and took in the Darkness. I related with her, socially awkward and doesn't make friends well. But then again, I lived more in the light than her.
She brought me to the Darkness, the place I escaped from so long ago. With a few kisses and an intimate moment, she had me. I never thought a self-proclaimed atheist would capture me. No one would ever think that, right? She has scarred me physically and emotionally. Got me believing the Light never existed, and that the Light left this wor
Black Heart, Physical PainThis Black Heart
Derived from pain
Not emotional, but physical
They gang up on me
I cower and run
Past the elders
Who should keep order
All they do is laugh
And record my fight
The true cowards
Fight 2 on 1
3 on 1, 4 on 1
My attackers came at me 2 on 1
Chased me down the hall of the school
Jagged metal protrude from the lockers
I run through the crowd
But they only reveal my location
They strike my face
I curl up on instinct
Taking the blows
One after another
Peers laugh along
When they stop and believe I'm done
They leave, mocking me
There mistake was turning there back on me
I slammed a kid to the locker
His shoulder got cut open
I run off, toward my home
Fearing for my life
Praying to God
That someday I will be saved
The Darkness however, had other plans
Only to torture me
Drag me down
I fought back, only getting angrier
Becoming more violent
Placing vicious traps
With the intent to make them miserable
One worked the right way
Revenge made me into a monster
Crimson light of HypocritesThis light
It does nothing but destroy
What is that?
You dont believe me?
My sun shines rays of crimson waves
Sunrise, the landscape is a bright red
Sunset however, everything is covered in blood red
It only makes sense
This town I reside in
This town I moved to
All there is
Is emotionless social murdering
And killing of the flesh
Breaking it down everyday
There always speeding up there death
Somedays I cannot help but not laugh at them
But somedays my heart breaks for them
All I see is death, and people zombifying
They say they go to church
But all they do is disrespect the God they worship
It always has kept man wondering
How can so many hyprocrites exist in a "holy" place?
The "Bible Belt"?
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